1. |
One For The Monkeys
01:05
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2. |
The New Complexity
03:56
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I read all the books, made no exceptions.
Still I don't work it out, it doesn't make sense.
Am I nuts? Does my mind
Spin in circles all the time?
Is there anyone who's got the idea?
One whole year of reading and preparing
Got me no cleverer considering these things,
Just made me nuts and my mind
Spins in circles all the time
But I won't get myself a break, I don't have time.
A freak is what you gotta be to get through all of this!
I see this new complexity is too much for me. It's all right.
It's not all right, but I'll try.
After living well for such a long time
I had to move here and now for the first time
I am nuts and my mind
Spins in circles all the time
But I won't get myself a break I don't have time!
A freak is what you gotta be to get through all of this!
I see this new complexity is too much for me. It's all right.
It's not all right.
And people look at me like I'm a fool
When I come in and I don't even
Know where I am in at all
'Cause what I thought it was a mall
Is really just a giant pub
And people stare at me and laughter
Is the only answer that I get
To all the questions that I have!
A freak is what you gotta be to get through all of this!
I see this new complexity is too much for me. It's all right.
It's not all right, but I'll try.
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3. |
The Worst Of Thoughts
05:58
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I'm better off alone
'Cause then I can control
Whether to think or not
And my tendency to moan.
But now I wait for you
To pick me up at home,
Dress me up and take me to
That party room.
I always thought it was you
Who always brought me down.
Now I know: It's not true,
The reason for my frown
Is: I've to be the center of view
Whenever I am out.
When there's noone, not even you
To talk to me I'm out!
Betrayal is all I ever knew.
And perfidious friends are never ever new.
And the worst of thoughts is:
It's all my fault again.
I haven't heard of you
Since I called you last.
You promised you would mail through
But you don't seem to take the task.
And still I wait for you
To learn you're still alive.
'Cause all you said seems now untrue,
You don't even try!
Betrayal is all I ever knew.
And perfidious friends are never ever new.
And the worst of thoughts is:
It's all my fault again.
I'm sorry to say
That I'm really okay
But I'm not willing to call anymore,
As long as you don't call me first.
I hate to say
That I'm entirely okay
But I'm not willing to call you anymore,
As long as you don't call me!
Now it became real - it's all my fault.
The worst of thoughts for me - it's all my fault.
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Your gestures of benevolence
Disguise disgrace and arrogance,
You're not the one you like everyone to see.
Your manner is a consequence
Of the influence of some false friends,
You're just the stupid prat they made you be.
But whenever I got her in my mind
I start to understand
Why they say it's all in the family.
Your parents were no utter drunkards,
Brought you up well and kept working hard,
So childhood's an invalid argument.
You talk to us with steady gaze
Of blessings, peace, convenient days,
Your lies so obvious, a poor attempt.
But whenever I got her in my mind
I start to understand
Why guys like you start wars
By reasons of love,
Sell everything down the river...
Your shares they always rise,
Your spirits sink,
You realize you start to shrink -
Too late! History's got no room for you!
It's sick and startling my mind.
You're sick but saying we do fine.
We're sad but you don't have time.
You don't care, we're not worth it.
You're sick and startling our minds.
You're sick but saying we do fine.
We're sad but wasting your time.
You don't care.
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5. |
Summerflight
07:10
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I had liked to be allright,
Just out on a calm summerflight.
But it went wrong, my wings broke,
It starts to rain, I'm out of hope.
The milk for my cereals is sour
And my coffee machine doesn't work,
The boy didn't bring me my newspaper,
My car breaks down on half way to work,
My boss fires me for being late,
Thus gives my girlfriend a reason to leave,
I walk home, all by myself,
My car long taken by some police.
I think I remember, my keys are inside,
The sky turns grey and it starts to rain,
The pub I always go to is closed today,
No roof over the bus station where I wait
For my bus to "fast-far-away",
In this wasted life I can never stay,
I'm wet to my skin and I'm cold like ice
And my bus doesn't and doesn't arrive!
I can take no more, I am filled with shit,
Life is such a whore, I am done with it,
I am nothing else but a loser and
My bus to "away" doesn't arrive!
I had liked to be allright,
Just out on a calm summerflight.
But it went wrong, my wings broke,
It starts to rain, I'm out of hope.
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6. |
Your Brains
05:13
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I always waited for you but you never came.
And all you wanted was my money and my fame.
I really liked you then but I will never tell,
Knowing you don't give a thing.
I didn't ever notice how childish you are,
I wished you luck, now I don't give a fuck
On what all these suckers
Think they have found in you, I don't understand.
To me you're just a stupid kid,
A mental wasteland.
I classified you not good enough for me,
Classified you right away and I don't feel too sorry!
I classified you too juvenile for me.
Your brains are of a three-year-old despite your body!
I always tried to be your friend and to be there.
You didn't even notice it. You're so unfair!
I really liked you then but those times are gone,
Knowing you don't belong to anyone.
I didn't ever notice how childish you are,
I wished you luck, now I don't give a fuck
On what all these suckers
Think they have found in you, I don't understand.
To me you're just a stupid kid,
A mental wasteland.
I classified you not good enough for me,
Classified you right away and I don't feel too sorry!
I classified you too juvenile for me.
Your brains are of a three-year-old despite your body!
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7. |
I Cannot Don't You
07:50
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It's the way you look at me
When you think I'm looking away,
The way you talk to me
When you really got nothing to say,
It's the way you stare at me
When I talk about something,
The way you smile at me
To win me over to you...
For all time of my life I've tried
To be the one you want me to be like!
But I cannot go on playing anyone I've never been,
Can't go on betraying everyone and above all me,
'Cause I alone know the truth about what I am inside,
I alone know what all that mess inside me is like.
That's me. I wouldn't know what to do
If you really knew me - I don't fit in your shoe.
I try to be so nice, I try to be so cool,
I try to justify, to look not like a fool.
But I cannot go on playing anyone I've never been,
Can't go on betraying everyone and above all me,
'Cause I alone know the whole truth about me and my life.
Don't you ever interrupt me! You won't get inside!
That's me. I really don't think that you
Really liked to know me - I don't fit in your shoe.
I cannot don't you!
And that's me. I wouldn't know what to do
If you really knew me - I don't fit in your shoe.
I mustn't go on acting, all these things have to stop
'Cause your love and your friendship's still everything that I got.
That's me. I really don't think that you
Really liked to know me - I don't fit in your shoe.
And please don't fall in love with me!
I wouldn't know what to do
If you really loved me - I don't love you!
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8. |
Heartly Welcome
05:21
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Good day, good night, hey folks, high five!
Close your windows, close your eyes,
Never watch them fight!
You rush, you run, to heat, to sun,
Have your fun with everyone
And never watch them!
I know sounds funny but
Please don't move!
Hold still, hold still!
Smooth!
I want you to sit down,
To be cute, not to frown,
Carry on and smile, smile!
And care for noone but yourself.
Sit silent and sing along, world's in your hands
And it ends!
All the patience that I got I will need today.
Eat a sandwich, drink a lot!
We'll make you stay for a very long time!
Take a seat and just feel fine!
I know it sounds funny but I have to
Say that you've really got to be smooth
To see not what's around,
Lack of all healing power.
Party on and smile for a while!
All the patience that I got I will need today.
So I can act like I forgot what world's like today.
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9. |
Dry
05:10
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I wait for nobody to arrive.
All alone I wander through the night.
They took all I loved and they were oh so right
As I refused to take that one peace of good advice.
And it's raining tonight,
Raining but I will try and get home
Dry.
Just out here I feel alive.
People have long gone and extinct their lights,
Not to be seen the slightest shimmer tonight.
All alone I am, it serves me right.
And it's raining tonight,
Raining, feels like I'm trying to get home,
Get home dry.
I'd hoped for somebody to arrive
But all alone I stand here in the night.
I'm wet to my skin and I am cold like ice.
But somehow I enjoy the silence.
And it's weird, this life.
Weird, but I will try and hang on
And ever on, singing:
What is it I've done
To deserve the things that have come?
I have lived the best I can
And got nothing of it back!
Doing all this, doing it wrong,
Singing my song,
I am sure that I will find
My way back home where I belong!
So what is it I've done
To deserve the things that have come?
I have lived the best I can
And got nothing of it back...
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10. |
Personal Statements
05:18
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Now I misuse them for personal statements again.
But I trust their habit of not singing along,
Hope they won't understand.
I've never written love songs,
I am just not that kind of guy
Who talks about the good times
but then right after the good-byes...
I never realize what I have,
Only realize what I have lost...
You're the most loveable, the most incredible
Person I have ever met!
You are beautiful and the most plausible thing in my life!
You are a suitable counterpart in heart
To my head!
And I'm in love with you! I love you!
But it doesn't take much to see
That something goes on with me
Whenever you're around or
Even I know that you're gonna be.
Only realize what I have
When I'm on the verge of losing it all...
You're the most loveable, the most incredible
Person I have ever met!
You are beautiful and the most plausible thing in my life!
You are a suitable counterpart in heart
To my head!
And I'm in love with you! I love you!
I hope you like it!
Now that I realized what I have
Realize I was about to lose it all...
You're the most loveable, the most incredible
Person I have ever met!
You are beautiful and the most plausible thing in my life!
You are a suitable counterpart in heart
To my head!
And I'm in love with you! I love you!
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11. |
The 2nd
06:33
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All I wanna do with this is hurt you
To make you feel what you did to me.
And all I'm gonna do with this is curse you
Because you fucked up things again!
It's all trash what you say.
Things are a mess and nothing is okay.
Your life is a mess you will never handle.
Now welcome in this world of serious emotions!
The 2nd time is much better you say,
For you know what happens but this
2nd time hurt much more than the 1st,
Though I knew it would happen...
I drew so many pictures, I wrote so many songs,
I did everything for you and I really belonged
To you and I still do. To you but I won't do.
To you and I still do...
There are only two ways to get over this.
The first is depression, I had to hate myself.
But I chose the 2nd, I decided to live,
Though this 2nd way means I have to hate you!
The 2nd time is very easy, you don't
Have any idea cause this
2nd time hurt much more but I won't cry -
I won't cry -
I won't cry - I won't cry - I won't cry - I won't cry
I won't cry - I'm not sad
I won't cry - I'm not bad
I won't cry - I won't call
I won't cry - And I won't ask
I won't cry - It's the end
I won't cry - It's over and
I won't cry - I don't want
I won't cry - I don't want to hurt!
I know you and I love you and I want to be with you!
I admire you! I desire you! I can't backfire on you though I liked to!
Cause I can't stand you! I can't handle you!
And I realised that I can't be with you
Anymore, you damn old whore!
I wonder if you have a heart!
Was I too bad for you in bed?
Was I just a game that you played?
Were you not deep in love?
And did someone better now come along?
I don't know - I don't know - I don't know - I don't know
The 2nd time is no problem, you say,
Cause you know what it's like but
This 2nd time is much more than I can bare,
I can handle...
But I won't care again,
I don't care, my friend,
Cause I wonder if there are not more important things
In life - in life - in life - in life
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12. |
You Are
05:00
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And I know for Christ's sake
I won't leave you behind.
Whatever they say.
And I know that I'll stay
At your side all the time.
No matter if it's all away.
You maybe know the fear
That is in my head.
I wish that you were here.
Lord, I wish that you were here!
You are You are You are my everything.
It was my life I laid into your hand.
And nothing nothing nothing could make me hate!
World is so poor but life is so pure
I don't understand
How you can hate hate anything, anyone
Now stay and listen! to what I say:
You don't know nothing!
You don't love anything!
You don't know nothing nothing nothing nothing!
You don't know nothing!
You don't love anything!
You don't know nothing nothing nothing nothing!
You were You were You were my everything!
I tried to be also the same to you.
And nothing nothing nothing could make me
Hate hate anything, anyone
Now stay and listen! to what I say:
You don't know nothing!
You don't love anything!
You don't know nothing nothing nothing nothing!
You don't know nothing!
You don't love anything!
You don't know nothing nothing nothing nothing!
Nothing!
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13. |
Telephone Disaster
06:57
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As I call you I hear you're not alone.
I hear people laugh and shout through the phone.
Voices call your name, you say you have to go
And I hang up and I roam.
'Cause yesterday you said today I couldn't come.
Now I know why: It's because you need to have your fun
And you feel bound to some morals when I'm there
That you forget when I'm gone.
Now I waste my time on being nice again,
Knowing exactly it won't make you my friend.
And I know
And I know
Don't want to go to your nerves...
Yesterday you called me, you were alone.
You said "Come over, have some tea, let's talk..." and so on.
At last you seemed to realize that I am there
Whenever you need someone.
And so we sat and talked all afternoon long
About your sorrows, your problems and so on.
It was one of the best days I've ever had
And then you sent me home.
Now I waste my time on being nice again,
Knowing exactly it won't make you my friend.
And I know
And I know
Don't want to go to your nerves...
As I call you I hear you're not alone.
I hear people laugh and shout through the phone.
And I know
And I know
I don't want to go to you...
Now I waste my time on being nice again,
Knowing exactly it won't make you my friend.
And I know
And I know
Don't want to go to your nerves...
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