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Take It Out On Me
05:14
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I know that your life is no picnic right now, that you struggle every day to "survive, somehow". But it is worth hanging on, don't you think, lad? I'd do anything to make you smile again and see you glad. When you won't even take music as a remedy I'll make it no secret: you look already dead to me. Fuck, if there is no other way then take it out on me, take it all out on me. If you smile again you can easily make up for it... make up every day. I know that you feel like you have no strength right now, that you needed someone to lean on somehow. Now, god knows I would really like to be that - I'll do everything to make you smile again and see you glad. So come, smile and let this music be your remedy. It's up to you, my friend, to sing along and dance for me. Fuck, if there is no other way then take it out on me, take it all out on me. If you smile again you can easily make up for it... make up every day. It may seem a necessity to let go and get rid of me. I just hope you have thought about it well, made up your mind... 'cause I haven't, yet, I can tell. But even if it hurts me, or even destroys me, I will be there to help, if I can. 'Cause I promised to myself and her spirit: I won't let you down, not right now. So if you need me, don't hesitate, call me, make use of me for whatever and fuck, if there is no other way still take it out on me, you can't bring me further down. If you smile again you can easily start a new life, only then without me.
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Après vous le déluge
04:05
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They say you're stronger than the mountains. They say you're the victor over the universe. You take your youth out of a fountain. Devil may care, après vous le déluge. They say you have flattened the mountains and that you have streamlined the universe and made it all your little playground - Devil may care, après vous le déluge. Hey, king of the world, come back! You forgot to put out the garbage. You left us a load of crap and we won't sit here on it. You have not my leave to go away, petty tyrant that you are. "Majesty" you had us say... oh, screw you! They say you tamed every animal and turned them all into a breakfast that you ate half and cast the rest away - Devil may care, après vous le déluge. But you ain't gonna stop us, now we fit in! What about you - are you in? We stopped the world, before, from spinning. We'll do it again. And we'll win everybody over to us - you are gonna bow! You and I said good bye. You and I were content. Another day we'll go back and try. Hey, king of the world, come back! You forgot to put out the garbage. You left us a load of crap and we won't sit here on it. You have not my leave to go away, petty tyrant that you are. "Majesty" you had us say... oh, screw you!
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It Is Mine
07:13
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It is mine and you can never have it, I will not let go. Feel free to come closer and take a look. You seem already sober, I wish I could. But I drank too much of you, you're still deep in my veins, and I will keep some distance and show indifference by all means until, eventually, again sensibility reigns. It's mine and you can never have it! I offered to share a load of it but you pushed away everything that I could give. Don't worry, it is fine that you decided against it. I only ask you stick to it - I cannot bear the closeness anymore. There is no one to be blamed. Or everyone? To me it's all the same, I could not have won. But I will try and stay nearby, and keep watch over you. And then when the time's right and all hearts get light I will make sure to be the first in line, and the closest to you. It's mine and you can never have it. I offered to share a load of it but you pushed away everything that I could give. Don't worry, it is fine that you decided against it. I only ask you stick to it - I don't know if it's time that we all woke up and let go. It is mine and you can never have it, I will not let go.
You substitute meaninglessness when you are the most wonderful person that I've met, so far. Your flaws you make up for with the size of your heart. You're cute and adventurous, funny and smart. You were there when I needed so desperately a person to talk to, an arm to hold me. And you took me with you for everybody to see that now it was you who would take care of me. You substitute meaninglessness when you are the steadiest rock in these times that move fast, stairs that won't spiral down but lead up - it's sad that I have to ban you from my heart! "It is mine and you can never have it, I will not let go." - who do I want to fool with this? I've fallen for you with all my heart. It hurts to see you there while I'm standing here, waiting for you to come along and find me, behind defensive walls. I tried to make them strong, I thought they were. But you proved a long while ago they were no use. They toppled to the ground, leaving all things bare and naked that once were safe and sound, for quite some time. For all my life I've hidden so much of who I really am - you re-discovered all and still stayed close, you didn't abandon the sinking ship I was, became the wind in my sails for a second or so, managed to thrust me forward before you turned again. Now an empty shell I am, swimming in open see, waiting for your return. Who do I want to fool with this? I've fallen for you. And it's no good denying, my acting skills are poor. Now, this is all yours. Take it away. I'm all yours.
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Zwischenspiel
01:03
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Step Up, Sucker
04:35
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What is this so-called humanity that you talk about all the time? Then you go, forget about it all. Are your values so much different from mine? Hey, I didn't ask you to stay. If you're not content then step up, sucker, and say what you think's not okay. I'm sick of your moaning and grumbling and f'... oh... Wait! Don't turn away! You always do that, why don't you go change a thing? Sit, frown and mumble instead. My life could be so peaceful without that... We hang out, you tell me how poor you are, - buy another drink, how poor is that? - and how much you cried when you heard that another vip got divorced. Yeah, world can be sad. Hey, I didn't ask you to stay. If you're not content then step up, sucker, and say what you think's not okay. I'm sick of your moaning and grumbling and f'... oh... Wait! Don't turn away! You always do that, why don't you go change a thing? Sit, frown and mumble instead. My life could be so peaceful without that... Stay! Stand! Show me your face! Look at yourself and then tell me again just how poor you are. You realize not that this is really sick!?
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The Loving World
02:46
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So I step out and into the blue to see that world that was laid there by you. So many things I'm prepared to breathe in, as in all your stories all that happened was good. But now the truth is revealed: nothing here is as it first appeared. Nobody is special, we all fit in. And no one will be spared. And in this loving, loving world you threw me carelessly... You never warned me of what was upon me, just opened the door and set me out in the street. Just until then all seemed be children's play, where bad things only happen in your bad dreams. But now the truth is revealed: the horrible things I dreamed of are real. Who invented warfare? Who said wealth was cool? Has the world gone mad? And in this loving, loving world you threw me carelessly, hoping, maybe, I could do on my own what you have failed to do yourselves. Now with conceit alone and as hard and cold as a stone, few decide and all on their own turn this world into a place where I say to the unborn that "into this cruesome, cruesome world we'll bring you carefully, hoping that you can change on your own what we have failed to change ourselves".
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Dave
05:01
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"You abandoned me!", you say. And: "You let me down and all on my own!" I cared about you. At least that is true. And I tried to alter you, yes, but only for your own good! I never tried to make you anything that wasn't already there. And most definitely I never tried to make you like me. But did I let you down when you needed me the most? Did I watch you drown and didn't help you out? Did I watch you become the junkie you are now? Actually, I don't believe that this should be my fault, 'cause it was all in your hands. I just tried to encourage you to lay down your nazi attitude. It is still in your hands! I am not to blame for you found coolness in my depression. And in all your blaming, the more intense it gets, you always fail to mention the asshole that you were when we met. Now you have many big plans and talk of them a lot. And they are really good, man, if only you got up. Now, that it is my talking that brought you where you are I don't expect you to listen. Just go on and try and blame the world for how fucked up you are, for your empty state and for all the scars where you cut yourself. I never said I don't feel sorry for you. But I also never said I'd take responsibility for your actions. But did I let you down when you needed me the most? Did I ignore your frown when I headed off? Was I not around when I was your only friend? Actually, I don't believe I could have changed you in the end 'cause it was all in your hands. I just tried to encourage you to lay down your phlegm attitude. It is still in your hands. I am not to blame for you found coolness in their drug consumption. And in all your blaming, the more absurd it gets, you always fail to mention the asshole that you were when we met.
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Plumb Loco
03:13
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Now that I've wasted precious energy and time 'cause I found sanctuary in a world that wasn't mine, I realize that after just the first step I should have turned around and gone the other way. 'Cause I have gone plumb loco, lately, 'cause of how you make me feel like I'm not the good friend that I used to be before. May be that you're embarassed, pissed off, or just bored. And after all the efforts that I made to score I won't bother now, at least not any more. 'Cause I have gone plumb loco lately 'cause of how you make me feel like I'm not a friend, nor a foe, a mere vacuum to you. Now, when I look back all that I can do is guess that you should never put good friendships to the test. May be it all was so I learned to be content with being and staying just the odd man to the best. But I have gone plumb loco lately 'cause of how you make me feel like I'm not a friend, nor a foe, a mere vacuum to you. I have gone plumb loco lately 'cause of how you make me feel like.
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I Don't Think
05:59
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Now, all the world's gone out and has some fun. I'm leaving, too, 'cause I've got work to do. Eventually, when all my work is done I think I'll give it a shot and get right back to you. And maybe I will find you'll have - but I'll take that risk - found the love of your life in anybody else. But if you're happy, I think I can be happy, too, and free at last of myself. I don't think I could have changed your opinion. I don't think I could have been the man of your choice and I don't think I could have revived your old feelings. But at least I am happy that we tried. I failed to be a light in your darkest of times, a fire that could keep the cold away, an anchor to hold on to in stormy tides. None of all that would bother you much, you say. It's just that we fell apart - and we took that risk, willingly and at chance like anybody else. But if you're happy, I think I can be happy, too, and free at last of myself. I don't think I could have changed your opinion. I don't think I could have been the man of your choice and I don't think I could have revived your old feelings. But at least I am happy that we tried.
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Crocodile
03:27
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Hey you! Come and kiss me hello. I know that you missed me but won't let it show. Why are you always so hard on yourself? Hello! "There is a crocodile in your cupboard, mother, eating up your bread. Serpents and lizards fight back the wizards and keep the world balanced in their stead." - Hello!
There you stand, just a girl on the dance floor, move your body to the dj's grooving sound. And I don't know if I'm happy or not that you don't seem to mind that your childhood is over now. There you stand, just a girl on the dance floor, don't seem to mind that your childhood is over now.
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At My Feet
12:00
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I point my finger at you, every little last one of you, and blame you for all the things that are in bad shape here. I point my finger at you because, no matter what you do I'm quite certain that no good comes from it. And who points at me? This is cheap and it's boring, a comfortable lie. It makes me seem a hero or such, as if I would constantly try to make a change for the better and as if I were so unlike you. And I blame you for talking when we're in dire need of deeds that could alter it all, courage and some open eyes to see, for your laziness... as if I were so unlike you. This is cheap and it's boring, a comfortable lie. Let's face it: I'm not different, all I do is constantly try to look any better and as if I were so unlike you. And now I stand here talking when we're in dire need of deeds that could alter it all, courage and some open eyes to see - is it my laziness or just that I am like you? The whole world lies at my feet. Why don't I travel it some time? What is more precious than my needs that I always delay? It's not the time to pack my stuff and just leave, and leave everything behind - there are people who count on me. (But vanish when I count on them.) I'm off, all you do all the time is complain that all I do all the time is complain that all you do all the time is complain that all I do all the time is complain...
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